Dear Janet,

Being in solitude drives me crazy.  I can hear myself.  I can hear mostly everything and mostly I can hear how lonely I am.  But that is not the case.  I feel the need to be by myself lately to figure something out.  I have to keep figuring something out.  I am by myself and too proud and stubborn to ask help from friends.  But I am the only one who can figure out what to do for the rest of my life.  And this is what I found out:  I must fulfill a sketchbook/diary to fulfill my obsession that I can't seem to rid myself of.  Everyday I will write down what I have to say about BK.  I will have to take photographs that remind me of BK.  The bottom line for this is to rid myself of this obsession.  I won't stop until I am done creating.  So the sketchbook/diary will be the next installment.

I just need to keep doing what I need to do.  That's all that matters to me.

illi